Come With Different Reason and The Same Love

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Finally I went there. After the working time, for the first time. Actually I've planned to go there long enough time ago, exactly, after the burial day. But I just did it lately because it always rain here.

Okay... What's the purpose I did it? Actually at the begining it's because I thought that I could not forget him. The beloved one who had gone...

But I should realize too, that life goes on! So, today I did it for different reason. Yup, I only wanted to remind myself, that he was there. He ever lived with us. Means, he is still my (even our) beloved, a life among us, who has been in God's hand. I have to surrender all to God, and continue my life.

...It's so calm there. There were some people  I thought a family  got together in the ceremonial like we did last time. There were some places with flowers and some yellow flags. Seems like the new burials. I walked along the path, through the outside of the edge of many tombs, to the tomb which I've planned to come. Actually I didn't remember which path I should walk through, because there were some ways I could choose. But I kept walking while trying to remember based on how the background was. Near some trees, near the edge of the block.

Finally I arrived there. Easy to get there. I saw his name there, still on the same white cross. There was some soil color on the cross.

I didn't talked to him like people did in movies or electronic cinemas, because I know he's in God's hand now. It's only his body there. I only saw the body of the tomb, considered that he was my nephew and I could be the same as him. May be someday. And because mother asked me to go there with her just to see how it is now, I can tell my mother now that the tomb had been planted with grasses by the gardener there.

Thinking of this matter remind me about my last entry about another tomb.