Come With Different Reason and The Same Love

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Finally I went there. After the working time, for the first time. Actually I've planned to go there long enough time ago, exactly, after the burial day. But I just did it lately because it always rain here.

Okay... What's the purpose I did it? Actually at the begining it's because I thought that I could not forget him. The beloved one who had gone...

But I should realize too, that life goes on! So, today I did it for different reason. Yup, I only wanted to remind myself, that he was there. He ever lived with us. Means, he is still my (even our) beloved, a life among us, who has been in God's hand. I have to surrender all to God, and continue my life.

...It's so calm there. There were some people  I thought a family  got together in the ceremonial like we did last time. There were some places with flowers and some yellow flags. Seems like the new burials. I walked along the path, through the outside of the edge of many tombs, to the tomb which I've planned to come. Actually I didn't remember which path I should walk through, because there were some ways I could choose. But I kept walking while trying to remember based on how the background was. Near some trees, near the edge of the block.

Finally I arrived there. Easy to get there. I saw his name there, still on the same white cross. There was some soil color on the cross.

I didn't talked to him like people did in movies or sinetron, because I know he's in God's hand now. It's only his body there. I only saw the body of the tomb, considered that he was my nephew and I could be the same as him. May be someday. And because mother asked me to go there with her just to see how it is now, I can tell my mother now that the tomb had been planted with grasses by the gardener there.

Thinking of this matter remind me about my last entry about another tomb.

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AnakKu yang terkasihi...
Kadangkala hidup mengharuskanmu menangis tanpa sebab. Kau merasa sudah berbuat baik dan benar, tetapi masih banyak kritikan yang dialamatkan kepadamu. Kau mengira keputusan yang kau ambil sudah tepat ternyata pikiranmu keliru.
Jangan putus asa! Bangkitlah! Matahari tanpa sinar tidak layak disebut matahari. Demikian juga dengan dirimu. Kau adalah matahari yang seharusnya memancarkan sinar, sekalipun mendung kelabu menutupi pandangan orang untuk melihat keindahan cahayamu.

Anakku yang terkasih...
Aku sering melihatmu marah ketika kau melihat orang lain berhasil. Untuk apa kau menginginkan keberhasilan orang lain? Bukankah Aku telah menyediakan kesuksesanmu sendiri?
Kau tidak pernah mengejarnya. Jadi kau tidak pernah bisa memilikinya. Matamu tidak terfokus pada rancanganKu yang dahsyat atas hidupmu, melainkan tertuju pada karyaKu yang luar biasa terhadap diri orang lain.
Jadilah seperti air. Selalu mengalir... Melewati semua benda. Menembus semua sisi dan tanpa batas.

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What's the matter?
I think my last blog got problem with the URL setting.

So sorry...

*Not ready yet to start any post. i'll do it soon.*